Be Myself Again

I’ve been chewed down and spit out one too many times now

One too many times now friend

I’ve been put in my place, tripped up in the race

Feeling so disgraced in sin

I’ve been a loser and abused by my own tunes

By my own thoughts and then

I would get back on my feet walk on down the street

Only to hear the wind

Not sure what to say, here comes another day

Here comes another burnt out man

Well I thought I would be different, thought I could be lifted

From the crap that never ends

For you know I’m feeling sad that I have never had

Oh I have never felt the peace

That we read all about, in the books and how

We should feel when we learn to be

But I’ve done everything that I can think

And fella I know I’m bound

To be running in a maze just chasing foolish things

That never truly come around

So today I write these words, even though I won’t be heard

Even though I won’t be feeling proud

But what I have to say, I’m gonna say today

I’m gonna pray that it’s aloud

So stop if you like, even dare to pick a fight

But buddy I’m laying it down

You see this world that I live in, I just need to give in

I just can’t take it now

But no matter where I go, no matter who I know

From this moment on I’ll hear the sounds

That are found in the silence that comes as inspired

That comes not from up or down

I’m not looking to impress, not looking for the best

Just looking for a place to rest

And try to re-discover all that’s been covered

All from deepening my breath

I’m gonna take my time, and simply unwind

Simply find my roots again

Gonna watch the water waves and feel the summer rays

Gonna let myself be and then

I will come back tomorrow remember all the sorrows

Remember what I have said

For I don’t really care to go somewhere

I just want to be myself again

Gonna calm right down, gonna hear the sounds

Of the angels singing in my head

And let the children play and let the elders say

What ever they like my friend

Cause here again tomorrow I’ll remember all the sorrows

I’ll remember what I have said

For I don’t really care to go somewhere

I just want to be myself again

Oh I don’t really care to go somewhere

I just want to be myself again

5/15/05
Steve Flemming